So yeah I wish I had written something pretty exciting about the Ensiferum concert here but due to some so-called 'friendship' problems, I was unable to go to the gig that I had been waiting for for *counts* 4 months!

So I was ready to go to Cologne today. I wore my Ensiferum t-shirt and BOOM!, the first shot. My friend called me to tell me he cannot make it because he was very sick. OK I was a little angry with him but he was really sick so it was OK. My other friend was gonna join me in Cologne. So I was just in cologne by the river eating my cheesecake. I had a good time by myself . I have talked to my friend that was going to come for a few times. And at around 6 o'clock he called me and he indirectly said that he couldn't come because he was returning from Netherlands and blah blah blah blah he cannot just leave the people who let him stay at their house and go and that made me pretty furious. In fact, I am still furious about it. After telling him off, I decided to go there on my own. He also said he could come but it would be after 10 o'clock. I was going there on my own but it hit me. The people whom I have been spending time with me have just kind of sold me out! I was practically crying in the 'Neumarkt' just across the metalheads who were going to the concert. Of course seeing them just lowered my self-esteem. Because well, they were in groups (I was alone) and they were pretty excited (I wasn't) and they looked tough. I decided to go there anyway so I took the tram and went there but I saw the people. They were drinking beer and they were 'feeling good' and they were all in groups. Most of them were guys as well so I chickened out and didn't go and decided to weep and drink beer with the scenery of the Rhein river and then go home.
*sighs* I just don't know what's worse. My friends NOT being my friends or my parents telling me that although they are proud of me, I am not focusing on my university but I am interested in other stuff or not being able to see Petri Lindroos LIVE OR missing the chance of destressing since my university starts tomorrow and I am not excited about that.
I feel like such a failure. Yeah, I am in my second year but well I am a failure. Like a rotten egg. Am I cursed or what?
Phew,that was long...